Pearls of Wisdom

Witness No. 11 - I AM the Witness - 1996

I AM the Witness

My Victory over Bulimia

Dear Mother,

When I attended Winter Quarter of Summit University in 1986, I told you briefly that I had overcome bulimia, but I never told you the story of that victory. I would like to share it with you now.

I was bulimic for almost nine years. It started in 1976 at age sixteen when my sister told me that she had found a way to eat all you want and not gain weight.

Weight was a jugular issue for me because my father used to tell me that I was fatter than the broad side of a barn and that I was going to grow up and be the fat lady in the circus. The message I received from the most important man in my life was that I was grotesquely overweight. I believed him, although I was never nearly as fat as he suggested I was. I look back at pictures of me as a child and I was a little chunky but very solid and certainly not obese.

On the other side of the coin, I used food for nurturance. My mother was not affectionate and I was miserably lonely. Food was the substitute Mother Flame in my life. Although I wanted desperately to please my father (who was himself obese), I could not give up my “surrogate mother.”  I was a prime target for the bulimia entity because it allowed me to fulfill the dream of being thin and I didn’t have to give up eating.

I was quickly eating enough for ten people every day by throwing up and shortly thereafter eating again. It was the most vicious cycle in my life. In one summer I went from 150 pounds to 108 pounds. I found that when I wanted to quit I was unable.

When I found the Teachings of the Ascended Masters in 1983, I was sure I would be able to stop the bulimia. But after nearly two years of decreeing faithfully, I was still bulimic. The cycle had slowed down a lot though–I was only eating enough for about two or three people.

Then one day–November 26, 1984, to be exact–I found the thirty-two pages of decrees by Mighty Victory in the yellow section of my decree book. That night I gave all thirty-two pages and the next day I felt a forcefield around me that was so strong it lasted the entire day. I got through the day without indulging in overeating and throwing up. That was the first day in almost nine years that I had not indulged in eating and purging. It was a great victory for me. I had often thought that if I could get through one day, I could get through the rest of my life.

I proceeded to give the Victory calls every day for the next two months. I remained free from bulimia. After six months I got accepted to the Summit University work/study program and remained on staff for the next four years, after which I went to school and then came back on staff.

Since my victory over bulimia, I have periodically given the Victory calls daily for anywhere from two weeks to two months at a time. My tie with Mighty Victory is very strong. With his support I have quickly accelerated on the Path, and he probably considers me one of his own.

One of the greatest things I experience when I am in a cycle of giving Victory’s calls is a fiery, fierce determination, self-discipline and at the same time a saturation of wisdom and love (the golden pink glow-ray). Giving the calls to Mighty Victory feels like giving protection decrees, calls to the flame of Wisdom, devotional decrees and violet flame simultaneously. They’re probably the most powerful and balanced decrees I’ve given.

I’m glad that I finally shared with you this story of my victory (which has truly been over many things). At this moment I am possessed with a great love for a great Master who has taken the time to personally attend to my victory.

Hail, legions of Victory!  Hail, legions of Love!

All my love,