Vol. 37 No. 28 - I AM the Witness

Vol. 37 No. 28 - I AM the Witness - July 10, 1994

I AM the Witness

Miracles of Love Do Happen
When One’s First Desire Is the Path

Beloved Mother,

I want to witness to the great love I have received in sixteen years on this Path and to one particular blessing that I feel that I can never repay. I am grateful beyond words to serve on staff, and I am especially indebted to Sanat Kumara and Lady Master Venus for their great gift to me: a divine love story.

Many times, Mother, you have given me precious guidance at critical points in my life, but in the end the choices were mine—even when I sometimes wanted you to choose for me! I can see that you were helping me develop my own Christ-discrimination and discernment of the heart.

I had always felt I had an ascended twin flame and did not think too much about it. On July 5, 1985, beloved El Morya told us about how we could ask to be reunited with our twin flame (Pearls of Wisdom, vol. 28, no. 33). He said:

Inasmuch as personal karma is the key factor separating twin flames and inasmuch as it is desirable that twin flames unite in service, the x factor that can make the difference is the entering in of one of the Ascended Masters or of Padma Sambhava or Gautama or Sanat Kumara to sponsor that union by pledging to take on the karma that does keep apart those souls. This sponsorship is like the sponsorship of the individual chela except it is the joint sponsorship of the twain.

This, then, is a call you ought to include in your prayers. It is a call that says:

“O God, I desire to perform the best service and to fulfill my inner vow with my twin flame. If it be that karma does separate us and therefore our service, I pray, let the Lord God set it aside for an hour and a year that we might show ourselves worthy, plow the straight furrow, enter into the service of our God and our country and of world freedom that together we may choose to balance that karma. And we do choose to do so, Lord God.

“We pledge, then, no matter what may come, that if we be united, we will serve in harmony by the grace of God to first balance the karma taken on by an Ascended Master that that one need not carry for us the burden that is truly our own.”

Thus having so said, it is important to record on paper in your own writing this prayer and whatever you have added to it with the date carefully inscribed and with your signature. You may insert it in the book of the Everlasting Gospel.

And so, I made this call, thinking it would afford me a greater closeness to my ascended twin flame. I put a copy in my Climb the Highest Mountain. I thought no more about it.

El Morya is a Master of cycles! I had asked for our karma to be set aside for an hour and a year. What a year that was! I was involved in a relationship that was leading to something serious and I wasn’t sure what to do. You counseled me that it was “Maitreya’s initiation to my heart.” Even though it was painful, I knew I had to move on. You told me, “My love for you is very real,” and I knew that your love would help heal my heart.

Soon afterward, on June 22, 1986, Lady Master Leto gave a dictation in which she said: “I place your hand now in the hand of your twin flame. And I bid you walk, walk now in this hour, beloved, a concerted victory within and without in the Alpha, in the Omega of thyself.” For some reason, this comforted me and I felt I had made the right choice: to complete my college education and then join staff.

During the same year, my future husband came in contact with the Teachings. The first dictation he attended was given by Archangel Chamuel on May 23, 1986. It was entitled “The Cosmic Mission of Twin Flames” (Pearls of Wisdom, vol. 29, no. 51). In it, Archangel Chamuel said:

Now there is the desiring here below as above for the twain to be one flesh, for twin flames to be reunited. If you desire this initiation, beloved, address it to me in your heart now. For I, Chamuel, send to you by the action of the fohatic key the initiation of a path whereby, if you follow its disciplines in obedient love and by love’s obedience, the passing of the initiations will lead you to the place prepared and the bridal chamber. Sealed in the heart as the bride of Christ, you will also know your beloved—this according to the cosmic law that governs your evolution and your individual karma, for we may not set aside that karma except by the decree of God. But you may call for karma to be set aside that you might perform good works here below.

And so my future husband made the call. He also began to cut himself free to serve at the ranch.

Three years passed. Cycles accelerated. We both arrived at the ranch at about the same time. I had almost decided to go get some job experience before I came here, but again because of your wise counsel I came immediately. If I hadn’t, I would have missed the cycle to meet my husband at the right time in our service. Initially, even though we lived just across the street from one another, we never crossed paths. I believe that God allows you to meet the right one only when you are ready and when you have passed certain tests.

When I came here, I had determined to not get involved in relationships. I just figured that marriage wasn’t for me and I dedicated myself to the altar. I was joyful in my service. At one point you gave a wonderful teaching on the Order of Saint Francis and Saint Clare. After a ten-day voice fast and this wonderful teaching, I was fully resolved and at peace with my decision to never marry. What a relief!

Well, El Morya’s eyes were twinkling now because he had another plan! Within a week of deciding that I would never marry I met my future husband at a community event. I looked into his eyes and recognized him at once. It was not love at first sight; it was a much deeper knowing and a connection that I had never experienced before. (Apparently, my husband had the same experience and he told me later that his heart burned when we met.) I was on my knees that night trying to understand this experience. Was it real or was it a test of my decision not to marry?

My answer came through deep prayer and intense calls and also because I began continually running into this person many times in the most unusual circumstances. This was a time of testing and of true discernment of the heart, but it was soon obvious that the connection was real and mutual. It was a purifying experience that made me fervently call upon the Lord so I would not make a mistake.

After a short time, we were married with the blessing of you and Lanello and El Morya. Although El Morya was benched at the time, he sent us a very special message. It is so sacred to me that I have never told anyone. It was worth any trial I have experienced in sixteen years to have received it. Truly this is the blessing of being here at the Mystery School: having you as our beloved Messenger to give us that tie to heaven.

Over time we realized we are twin flames. This understanding did not come right away but through a sequence of events and also through meditation upon El Morya’s message. Soon after we were married you announced that Sanat Kumara and Lady Master Venus were sponsoring a number of marriages at that time since El Morya was benched. Their dispensation was for the reunion of twin flames.

And so the little prayer from El Morya came full circle and to full fruition in my life! I sometimes wonder whether this all could have happened if I had not inserted that prayer in my Climb the Highest Mountain. Thank you, El Morya!

Our marriage is happy, but we have our differences like any other couple. Day-to-day life goes on. We strive and serve. I know that the only way our union will be permanent is if we individually have our victory in Christ, so it is still a very individual path. But it is a blessing to walk side by side.

I am keenly aware of the fact that without you and without the Masters’ sponsorship of us here, we would never be together. I feel more strongly than ever the need to serve to balance the karma that the Masters took on for us. Sanat Kumara said it perfectly on January 2 of this year (Pearls of Wisdom, vol. 37, no. 10):

I cannot overstate to you the complexity of the strands of karma that tie you to this earth and to your service. Once El Morya told the Messengers that had they not agreed to come together in this life under the hierarchy’s direction, the tie whereby the Great Law required them to serve together should have been buried beneath the shifting sands as deep as the transatlantic cable. And the opportunity for them to serve together to fulfill their mission would not have come to the fore again for many centuries.

And without the Messengers we definitely would have missed our cycle. And so we give our intense love and gratitude and our pledge that we will serve, come what may. There is no place on earth I would rather be than Maitreya’s Mystery school, the place of great encounters of all kinds.

Thank you, Sanat Kumara and Lady Master Venus, for the miracle of divine love. Thank you, Mother, from the bottom of my heart.

“Thanks for Making the Difference in My Life”

My Very Dear Mother,

I am writing to express my gratitude to you, your staff and the ascended hosts for my opportunity to attend Summit University this summer. I am still basking in the Light, Glory and Comfort of this experience. My delay in writing you after the conclusion is due to the feeling I had that writing would be anticlimactic since I felt you already knew how I was feeling. Yet I knew I had to say something, if nothing more than “Thanks for making the difference in my life—for changing it from a life of untethered despair to one of constant joy, gratitude and hope.”

I shall always think of my attending Summit University as another miraculous occurrence in my life, the fulfillment of a long, long held desire. Yes, it was everything I had expected and more, for I experienced such a closeness to God that remains with me yet.

Mother, it is true that karma blinds, for now I realize how much more “awake” I am now than I was before. I also realize that I have brought much karma on myself in the past because I desired to be afflicted so others would feel sorry for me. Instead of sympathy, I received scorn and ridicule because I radiated a sense of poor self-worth. I know now that God is omnipotent and he wants his creation to express mastery of the self and to be a reflection of himself, rather than to engage in self-pity and other such perversions.

Attending Summit University made me realize the unity of God in a deeper way, for, as John wrote, “In him is no darkness at all.” Sometimes I wonder who I was in past embodiments. I must have been someone who made much karma and experienced much darkness, but it is different now, Mother, thanks to you. Though I may still need to fight many battles in the future, at least I hope I can say that the major darkness is over—the part that has been vanquished by many decrees and prayers, invocations and intercessions by you and the Ascended Masters and beings of Light.

My attending Summit University was no small thing. For me, it was a supreme opportunity in cosmic history. It was a pearl of great price and I will defend it, and the realizations I gained there, with my life.

Mother, thank you for being instrumental in bringing me to God and helping me to see the Reality of being. God has never left me. It was I who left him. I am humbly grateful that he has accepted me again. I will never be so foolish as to stray again, by the grace of God’s love and power.

I am so happy that at last I have found someone in whom I can trust, who will not let me down as long as I hold fast to Truth, Love and Faith, as long as I surrender totally to God’s will. I am not afraid now to face the shadowy self, for I know that God will be with me as I strive to pluck out all roots of unreality from my consciousness. Thank you for your prayers and intercession.

Mother, I love you! I love you! I love you! Please pray that I will be able to do something for God to express my appreciation for the salvation of my soul through my Saviour and Lord Jesus Christ. May God ever be with you.

Eternal love and gratitude,

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