Vol. 36 No. 2 - I AM the Witness - January 10, 1993
I AM the Witness
A Sign from the Chief
Dear Mother,
There are many precious stories to be told and numerous lessons to be learned when on the Path. This story is a few years old but its lessons are still being learned.
I had been received on staff in June following nine months at Summit University, Levels I and II. My first assignment was as a teaching assistant and it was two weeks before the start of the fall session of Summit University. There had been major changes in my life in that year and I was not feeling integrated within, nor with the Teachings, nor with the Community. I had strong doubts about my ability to represent or present the Ascended Masters’ Teachings to the students.
That Saturday I was feeling overwhelmed by a sense of inadequacy and fear. It was a clean-up day on the campus and I was assigned to rake Excalibur Square. I was grateful to be out of the office and to work alone doing physical labor, for it provided me the opportunity to sort out my thinking and converse with El Morya and Lord Maitreya.
I knew the assignment to Summit University was no mistake. I was there when the assignment was made and was part of the discussions and considerations leading up to it. Yet I was filled with self-doubt. My day’s labor in Excalibur Square ended but my conversation with El Morya and Maitreya continued as I wrote them a confession letter prior to the Saint Germain service that evening. In the letter I confessed my concern about my ability to properly represent them, my fear and depression.
Tears had come frequently during the day and continued while I wrote. I was not accustomed to asking heaven for favors or proof for something, but I found myself asking El Morya and Maitreya to confirm that they desired to have me as a teaching assistant at Summit University. I asked them to confirm this through the gift of a semi-precious or precious stone within the next six weeks.
I was embarrassed, even ashamed at what was coming out on the paper. I smiled and almost laughed through my tears because it seemed so childish and I knew of no possible source for such a gift. I then told the Masters that such a confirmation was not really necessary and that they could be assured that I was there to serve and would do so. I said I knew that they were there for me and I was grateful.
So, with the confession made, I went to the service and then home. My heart was still troubled but considerably more quiet. I shared an apartment with other staff off campus and we had a guest in the house that night whom I did not know. I am not sure if I had even met her.
Early the next morning I was praying in my room when there was a knock on my door. It was our guest inviting me to go out to breakfast with her. I wondered if this was a distraction to take me from my prayers, but I decided to go.
As we were leaving the restaurant, my companion stopped and said, “I didn’t know how to do this, so I asked you out for breakfast. When I woke up this morning and was putting on my rings, I knew that this one no longer belonged to me. It’s for you from El Morya.” She then handed me a blue sapphire ring.
I was stunned. It was but fourteen hours after my written request. I told her my side of the story and we both stood in awe. I was moved by this woman’s attunement and her willingness to readily relinquish something as personal as a ring to a stranger. Yet, there she was, an instrument of the tender mercy of El Morya.
The ring was one I might have chosen for myself. The band was fashioned like latticework, and I had been meditating on the concept of having open spaces within oneself (like latticework) for the fire of God to pass through. The stone anchored the love and the presence of beloved Morya, one with God’s will.
El Morya saw beyond my immediate request to a deeper need to develop trust and to know his love. Throughout the year, as I would feel the ring on my finger or look upon it, I knew my Guru’s presence and it sustained me.
It is a magnificent and humbling experience to be a part of the process that Summit University is. The student hears a single teaching or dictation and finds it uniquely applicable to his own life. Throughout the quarter the accumulation of the teachings, dictations and clearances, combined with the science of the spoken Word, work a sacred alchemical action in the student that is an immeasurable assist toward the goal of union with God. The student has the opportunity to contact not only the teaching but the Teacher behind the teaching–and therefore its source.
Summit University is a sacred adventure in soul exploration, and it was no less so for me as a teaching assistant. El Morya’s assignment was a specific challenge to points of pride and fear as my sense of inadequacy and being overwhelmed continued to reappear. The ring was and is a reminder to me to trust the assignments given to me through the Messenger. And it continues to be a reminder of El Morya’s abiding presence, wisdom and love. It encourages me to surrender those elements that obstruct the work that he would do through me and to embrace the will of God.
I am reminded of El Morya’s words in his dictation given April 19, 1992: “The will of God is only good and it is glorious and it is supreme and it is comforting and it is enlightening and it is all things, including the restoration of your blueprint in every atom and cell of your being.”
Beloved El Morya, Beloved Mother, may my heart grow in oneness with your own. May I come to trust and love the will of God over all else and take courage therein. Thank you for striving with me and taking my hand.
With love,
Montessori International Apprenticeship Program
Dear Mother,
I would like to witness to you of the wonderful experience I had this summer in having a Montessori student as my apprentice.
I work in construction in the ranch maintenance department, primarily as a plumber. So, for the most part, I taught my apprentice plumbing. But the young man, age eight, also learned about electrical, carpentry and household repairs.
Our two big projects were to set up the shower trailers at East Gate and prepare the Heart for the class. This involved all of the gas lines, water lines and hand-washing stations. He was so excited about the work that he didn’t want to stop! He was always upbeat and continually asked questions. He just loved it! He kept me going when the class drew nigh and fatigue became a challenge.
It was important for me to have him as a companion. He helped me to remember what it was like to be eight years old. It was like reliving the fun I had with my best friend at that age. I believe the apprenticeship program will do more than teach the children valuable skills–it will give all of us who are blessed to work with them a chance to find our own inner child.
This experience taught me patience, understanding and better ways to teach skills. We often took each other by the hand and he would teach me to see the world through his eyes. I actually began to reexperience my youth again. We are going to try to keep working together through the school year when we can.
If only you could have seen him in the tool belt I gave him! He always liked to carry more tools than I did. (I’ve enclosed for you two photos his mother took of us.)
I will be working with the foreman on developing an apprenticeship program for our children this fall. I have witnessed to many of the adults in our community of our experience and, based on their reactions, I know the program will really grow.
Thank you, Mother, for this wonderful opportunity!
Love,
“The Best Thing I Ever Did!”
Dear Mother,
I want to tell you about my apprenticeship as a plumber this past summer. I learned to fix toilets, sinks and many other things. My favorite job was during the setup of the July conference in the Heart. I helped hook up the water and propane on one of the trailers.
I was glad I could work for you and help put on the conference. Learning to be a plumber this summer was the best thing I ever did!
With lots of love,
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