I AM the Witness
The Agony of Abortion
Beloved Mother,
I want to thank you for bringing to me love, realism, mercy and hope. I want to witness to this and to the fact that you are the Messenger of the Great White Brotherhood.
When you brought to me not only the love and mercy of God but also the realism of the karmic law, I finally faced what I had done when I had had an abortion. Without that combination of love and mercy and facts, I think that it would have been almost impossible–although with God nothing is impossible–for me to recognize and accept responsibility for what I had done.
It is still very painful for me to think about the abortion, but I hope that my story can help to spare another woman, another man the weight of such karma. I hope it can help to spare an incoming soul the agony of abortion and help to spare our beloved America the karma of more of this bloodshed.
In my experience, irresponsibility in the sixties led to more and more irresponsibility and the nadir of it all was the abortion. Then, years later, I encountered you. I thank God! Your love and the amazing love of the Masters sought me. They drew me, attracting me with amazing purity and directness. I knew that here was truth, here was reality. I had found love that I could trust, loved based on reality.
Gradually the truth about abortion, the abortion that I had arranged, became painfully clear: I had aborted a soul. I had aborted a soul’s plan. These facts became even clearer to me with your lecture on abortion in 1990 and with Jesus’ Easter Sunday address, March 31, 1991. Jesus spoke of those who had been led astray by the Supreme Court’s decision to legalize abortion. He said these must know the truth that the soul of the unborn child is “integral to that body, to that mind, to that memory, to that sheath of desire, all coming together in that embryo, in that fetus in the womb.”
It became clear that I had subtracted one of the souls who were supposed to be in embodiment to help bring in a golden age in America and the world. I knew that what you and the Masters said was truth.
But my weighed-down soul also heard, Mother, your merciful call for “Clearing the Records of the Pain of Abortion” (decree 83.52). It is a prayer that I’m sure can help every woman, every man who has been responsible for an abortion and who now longs for forgiveness and resolution and balance of that karma.
I remember Lady Master Magda’s dictation of October 8, 1976. How I treasured that dictation! Beloved Magda spoke to us of her embodiment as Mary Magdalene. She said:
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| I am grateful that I could be a part of the mission of Jesus and that I could be the example to the world of the depths to which the feminine ray could descend and yet still be saved by the Saviour. Each one has a role to play. God called me to play that role so that the elevation of the feminine ray could come through beloved Jesus. And as Mary played her role in the exaltation of the feminine and the bringing forth of the Christ consciousness, so Jesus was able to illustrate that whether or not you have initially the great purity of the Virgin Mary, you can rise to that state of purity and it will not be denied to you. |
Magda seemed to suggest that people who felt unworthy to approach Mother Mary might feel able to approach her. I could identify with that. I thought: “How can I possibly approach Mother Mary?” So I used to sit in King Arthur’s Court as close as possible to Kuan Yin and her large amethyst geode because I wanted to be flooded with mercy, mercy, mercy. I still try to be close to Kuan Yin every day through her mantras and statues.
And mercy came. Mercy comes. I no longer feel banished, self-banished, from Mother Mary. I pray her rosary every day and I call for the violet flame to assist that soul whom I callously hurt and thwarted. I try to balance the karmic debt. I am thankful for the violet flame and for the opportunity to work now to balance the karma.
So I thank you, Mother. Thank you for coming with love and the Masters’ love and teachings. Thank you for helping me to face this painful responsibility. Thank you for helping me to move on. By my own experience, I know that you are the Messenger of the Great White Brotherhood. I honor and witness to the Light in you and I thank God for you.
I also thank God that years ago, when I sat in the audience at one of your Stump lectures, you said, “I bow before the Light within you.” I thank God that you in that way helped me to have hope.
Gladly I commit myself to serve with you.
Gladly I give you my love,
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