Vol. 34 No. 19 - I AM the Witness

Vol. 34 No. 19 - I AM the Witness - May 12, 1991

I AM the Witness

I recently had someone ask me why I am in the Ascended Masters’ organization. When I pondered the question with my head, I could come up with a lot of answers. But when I pondered it with my heart I could only find one answer.

In 1985 the Masters sent Mother on a stump tour to Europe. The last event of the tour was a seminar held in Flevohof, Holland. The last dictation of the seminar was by Saint Germain. Looking back at it now, I can see that it was one of the greatest, if not the greatest, turning points in my life. I had heard dictations by Saint Germain on tape, but being there was so different and he literally took me by storm.

Beforehand we had been told by our group leader that for Mother to keep her concentration and stay in attunement, there should be complete silence in the room. And right before the dictation started, Mother explained that Saint Germain’s dictations were always very complex and she asked us to be totally silent. So, of course, I was prepared to simply sit there and do nothing but experience it.

Well, Saint Germain started out in a very powerful voice. His message pointed to the fact that some people come to the spiritual path and to the Masters’ teachings in order to boost their egos and to be flattered with the feeling of being somebody special because they know the Masters. Saint Germain said that too many come to be pampered, having their pet theories and ideas, wanting ratification for these instead of truly listening with the inner ear and the soul to what the Masters are teaching–or instead of saying, “Saint Germain, strip me of my pseudoself!”

Then he said with a thundering voice: “Let me hear those who dare make that cry!” and stopped talking. I think most everybody else was as surprised as I was, and it certainly took a few seconds to realize he was actually waiting for an answer. So finally people started, scattered and with hesitant voices, shouting, “Saint Germain, strip me of my pseudoself!”

The Master barely let us finish before he responded with a thundering “That is not fiery enough and I will not accept it!” Whereupon we all shouted the fiat again at the top of our voices, which he responded to with (and you could feel the gleam in his eye), “That is indeed an improvement!” When the laughter died down, he continued and I think he had gotten everyone’s attention and our hearts as well!

The dictation left me absolutely stunned. When it ended, I was so enveloped in the Master’s vibration that I just sat there while everybody was leaving the room. I noticed how some people went before the altar platform and knelt down, and I did the same. I could not even think or pray, so I simply sat there with my mind being totally open. Suddenly his fiat rang through my mind: “Saint Germain, strip me of my pseudoself!” and I really let go.

I felt that for the supreme love I felt for the Master, there was nothing in my own psychology, no part of my outer self, that I would not let go of in order to serve him better. I felt an immense longing to be free of all unrealities so I could give the maximum service to Saint Germain. And when I sent forth this longing, I immediately felt such a flow of light into my soul that was way, way beyond any description. But it was certainly the experience of a lifetime!

For the first time, at least in this lifetime, I had the remarkable experience of being so filled with light that I simply could not contain it. And I experienced in a very literal way the meaning behind the old saying “My cup runneth over.”

Rereading his dictation as I am writing this, I am experiencing the whole thing again. The inner experience has come back full force. And here is a key point I truly desire to make clear. When it comes to the inner experiences, no–and I mean absolutely no–outer things have any importance whatsoever.

I have heard people say that Elizabeth Clare Prophet is only in contact with “the spirits of dead people.” I have heard people say she is not a true Messenger. I have heard people say all kinds of things about Elizabeth Clare Prophet, the Summit Lighthouse and the Ascended Masters. I have heard them intellectualize, rationalize and come up with all kinds of scientific logic. But all that has no sway over the pure feeling of love in my heart.

The simple facts are as follows: When I first heard the name Saint Germain, there was an instant inner recognition I could not explain and which I was not even fully aware of. Seeing his picture (mind you, it is simply a picture of a man who is not even in a physical body) gave me an instant soul recognition. Reading the words dictated by him through a physical Messenger brought the same feeling, but a step closer. Hearing a dictation by him on tape was even more powerful. But being there for his dictation in that lecture hall in Flevohof brought a total and fully conscious recognition with a breaking down of all barriers except that of conscious memory.

I know I have known Saint Germain before this lifetime, even though I have no conscious memory of it. I may have known him, as he said in the dictation, for 70,000 years or more. The love I feel for him has not arisen in one lifetime. It is a mature love, having had a long, long time to grow strong.

The simple thing is that I love the soul, the individuality, the lifestream, the vibration who is at present known as the Ascended Master Saint Germain. I love him more than any physical person I have met so far. It has nothing to do with the words he says or the way he speaks through a certain, but temporary, physical Messenger. It is solely a matter of reading the inner vibration of his individuality–and knowing, experiencing that it is him and that I have found him again!

That feeling, that knowing, that love is the one and only reason for my following the Ascended Masters’ Teachings.

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