I had the great pleasure to attend Summit University in the Fall Quarter of 1989. This was sponsored by Sanat Kumara and the Ruby Ray masters. I had found the teachings a year earlier and just knew I had to be there. I resigned my one year old job at a new company called Dell Computer and sold many of the things I had and headed to Montana for 12 weeks. Looking back, it was one of the best things I have ever done and it was also one of the hardest things I have ever done.
After leaving Summit University, it took only about two months to lose the light I had invoked and become caught up in the things of the world again. I was fighting alcoholism before I went to SU and it came back and was a plague upon me for at least 16 years after I left. During the next 19 years after leaving SU, there were many, many things in my path. I had three marriages, two children, lived in 3 different states, had many jobs and passed through the lives of many people. During these years and having lost the light from SU, I was alive but not really. The days were long and I could not find any real joy in anything. Not in family, work, a beautiful sunset, a pretty picture or a song. There was a terrible dryness to all of life and I wondered if I would ever find any joy again. It all seemed so empty. I did not decree or really do anything related to the teachings. I did however know somehow deep inside that one day, I would be come back to the teachings. I just did not know how. I kept up my Keeper of the Flame dues and occasionally I would read a Pearl of Wisdom when it came in the mail, though not all that came. I would read it once and put it away. I did keep all my books I had acquired in the early days and all of my notes from SU. I treasured them inside and just knew I needed to keep them.
One day around 19 years after I left SU, I had the strong urge to at least try and give some decrees as I drove to/from work each day. My goal was to give 15 – 20 minutes a day for one year to “prove” the efficacy of decrees to myself. I was able to do this for about 3 months and then it fell away.
About three months after that I had the strong urge to tithe ten percent of my income to the church, to do it FAITHFULLY and not look back. This I started to do. I did this for six months straight and then to my great gratitude, God took over.
I went to bed one Saturday night like any other. However, when I woke up the next day, I was a new man. Things simply were not to be the same ever again. I decreed for two hours that day and have been steadily doing this for the last two years. What a two years it has been! I have been blessed in so many ways.
On my last move to the state I now live in, I lived about 15 miles from a study group in a major city. I had lived by this group for 6 years before my special day happened and yet I could not get to a meeting there. After my special day happened, I became a regular there for many services every week from that time forward and have been a contributor every since. I even became a board member. I have had the great pleasure to get back to the ranch for the 50th gala anniversary, the later Easter conference where I became a communicant and now I am going to the upcoming summer conference. I have found joy again in myself, the world and my fellow man. I have also always had more than enough supply to pay my bills, have extra to help others and my study group and generally do what is needed in my life. All Glory to God.
There have been many other wonderful things on my journey that I treasure and keep to myself. What I do know is that I AM back in God’s hands (of course he never left) and he through the Ascended Masters watches over every single thing I think and do. I can never express my Love and Gratitude for what the Messengers have done for all the Light bearers on this planet. Praise God.
I firmly believe that if I had not listened to the inner voice and started to faithfully tithe, none of this would have happened as it has. I am ever so grateful, grateful, and grateful. The beauty is that the journey keeps getting better every day. Just the little things that happen are so special. Oh, there are still challenges and some tough work to do every day, but I look forward to them and the growth that comes along with them. Yes, it was definitely worth the effort!
Thank you El Morya, St. Germain, Lanello, Guru Ma and the entire Spirit of the Great White Brotherhood.